The Joy of Affirmation – Angel Number 333

As I related in my last post, I’ve been struggling a lot with what is going on in the US since Trumpism took over. I see this country sliding into a Theo-Fascist state (fascism mixed with hard far-right Christian doctrine) and yes, it worries the crap out of me. I have many strikes against me should I be deemed an enemy of the state – I am not a Christian, I am primarily a Buddhist who believes in Christ Consciousness, Angels and Ascended Masters. I am bisexual. I am disabled, both mentally (bipolar disorder, BPD, GAD w/panic attacks, and OCD)and physically (neuropathy in both feet due to chemo use years ago for uterine cancer). I lean more toward Democratic Socialism politically. And finally, I am a woman of middle age who can no longer bear children. No reasons whatsoever for a Theo-Fascist state to keep me around.

So all these things keep me awake, anxious and unsettled. I wake up wondering what fresh new hell Trump has put us through and go to sleep wondering if we will ever get our country back. For a long time, I also fell asleep asking “Does the Divine even care what is happening here?” or “Is this truly the will of the Divine and if so, why?” As a Buddhist, I am supposed to just let this pass and focus on the here and now. I know this. And I do try. Yet, I am still unnerved and disturbed by all that is going on in the US and the damage being done to our allies and neighbors.

In a dream, that I believe was directed by the Archangel Michael, I sat through the history of the human race for a course in a university’s large auditorium. The topic was how civilizations fall. The professor’s theory was to teach humility. The peoples of these civilizations had become so greedy, so corrupt, and so out of sync with the universe, that they had to learn humility and so horrid leaders rose up and destroyed that civilization. The result was a more humble people, ready to embrace a more democratic way of living.

When I awoken that very early morning (due to pfairies chasing me to the bathroom), I glanced at the clock by my bed and the time was 3:33 am. A smile creased my face as I hurried to the bathroom. I know about Angle numbers. Generally I will see 111 or 222, etc. But rarely do I get 333. 333 is unique. It stands for peace, love and harmony, but it is also the call number of the Ascended Master Jesus, the very person I’d been hoping to hear from for a while! It lead me to believe that yes, the Divine is still with us and knows what is going on and we have not been abandoned. Peace, love and harmony will win out in the end, but first, we need to be humbled as a nation.

That ray of hope sustained me for a while. And then Supreme Court Justice Kennedy decided to retire, giving Trump another chance to pack the highest court with an ultra-Conservative rightwing justice. I envisioned Roe vs Wade going away. I envisioned my sisters and brothers in the LGBTQ community having their right to marriage slip away. I envisioned all of the civil rights we on the Left have worked so hard for slipping away as well. I could see the US definitely becoming my worst nightmare – a Theo-fascist nation with all the hallmarks of Gilead from The Handmaid’s Tale. Again, I was despondent over this and fretted for days and nights about it. And just when I’d given up all hope, I awoken two mornings ago at 3:33 am again. The Ascended Master Jesus had again assured me that all would be well. Not to fret so – peace, love and harmony would prevail.

So I wanted to share this with my readers and ask if any of you have been receiving messages of this kind, either through dreams or Angel numbers? If so, I hope you will share them with me. If not, I accept all discussions on this topic. Thank you all!


ME Moments & Other Oddities

Some days I feel like I am going out of my mind. No, maybe not quite that far. Perhaps the best way to describe it is that I feel like I’ve stepped into another reality or universe. I don’t even know when it began as I’ve felt odd since around 2012, but I remember the day it finally occurred to me – it was early December of last year (2017). I’d been watching random stuff on Youtube and I came across a video talking about the Mandela Effect or ME.

What is the Mandela Effect?

The Mandela Effect is a phenomenon in which a large group of people remember things differently than how they appear now. The term was coined after Nelson Mandela because a large group of people remember him dying while he was in prison in the 80s or 90s, even though he died in 2013. This group of people have vivid memories of his funeral and people mourning him. Some say late 80s and others say early 90s. This is not the only ME though. In fact, there are so many MEs now that the ME community has become divided between those who are strict ME-ers and those who see MEs in every little thing. The biggest division seems to be with word spellings and corporation logos. I’ll admit, I have many ME moments, but do not agree with every ME I come across.

Here are a few of my eye-opening MEs:

  1. Isaiah 11:6 – I will admit that I am not a Christian and have not read the Bible in many decades; however, I was a Christian as a child/teenager and I had a picture of the lion lying in a field with a lamb and remember this passage captioned under it – “And the lion shall lie down with the lamb…”. I also remember it being listed as “The lion shall dwell with the lamb…” Neither exist any longer. In no versions of the Bible. It now reads – “The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; and the calf and the young lion and the fatling together; and a little child shall lead them.” WOLF? I honestly do not remember wolf. This freaked me out so badly that I went around asking as many Christians as I could if they remembered the lion and lamb verse and many were also startled to realise that it now says wolf.
  2. Berenstein Bears – I was an avid reader of these books as a child and remember vividly the name of the bears being BerenstEIn. Nope, now it is BerenstAIn Bears and apparently always has been.
  3. “Luke, I am your father.” – Now I will admit that I am not an overly fanatic Star Wars fan; however, I have seen every movie at least 2-3 times. I remember that line so well. Apparently though, it has always been “No (or Know), I am your father.”
  4. “ET phone home.” – When this movie first came out, I watched it three times in the theater and then bought the VHS of it. I’ve seen it at least 50 times in the years since. Well, now it says “ET home phone.”
  5. “Life is like a box of chocolates.” – I’ve seen Forest Gump a dozen or more times and I remember that line. Now it says, “Life WAS like a box of chocolates.”
  6. “You can dance if you want to…” – When Men Without Hats first came out with this song, I fell madly in love with it and would sing it constantly. I know it began with YOU, but apparently now it is “We can dance if we want to…” at the beginning and always has. Granted, I do remember the song changing to WE after that first line, but YOU was there!
  7. We Are the Champions – I loved Queen. Hell, I still love Queen. I sang this song all the time. I remember it ending…. “We are the champions…. of the world!” Well, now it just ends with “We are the champions.” You can still find live versions of Queen singing the song and ending it with “of the world,” but the album version no longer has it.

There are tonnes more of these MEs, like name changes – Lynda Carter instead of Linda Carter, Sally Field instead of Sally Fields, Julia Child instead of Julia Childs and on and on. Even movie and tv show changes like Sex and the City instead of Sex IN the City and Interview with the Vampire instead of Interview with A Vampire.

So what do people say about those of us who see these MEs when they do not? That we are just misremembering. I will admit that it is mostly older people, those of us born in the 50s, 60s and 70s who remember things differently, who are seeing these MEs and freaking out, but there are some younger people seeing and remembering things differently too.

What’s Causing MEs?

There are many theories for what may be causing these MEs. Some blame them on CERN or Quantum Computers. Others say that those of us who are seeing MEs have “awakened” and “ascended” to 5D. While others are seeing something malicious in these changes due to time travel and deliberate changes to corrupt history. Some Christians have really freaked out because they are discovering a lot of changes to the Bible and believe that it is Satan’s work to fool Christians and this means that the end of the world is nigh. CERN is a big part of that too because they (those Christians) believe that wormholes have been opened and have allowed demons to come through or those who’ve created these Quantum Computers have been pulling things in from other realities/dimensions.

As for me? I have no idea what is going on. I am freaked out, but it isn’t just because of MEs. I’ve been having other issues too. The biggest for me is that sometimes when I am listening to the tv or something on my computer, I cannot understand what people are saying. It’s as though they are speaking a foreign language that I have never heard and cannot understand. I also hear a lot of frequency changes in my head/ears. If you’ve ever taken a hearing test, then you remember those sounds played to test your range of hearing. That’s what I hear often. Either an increase in frequency or a decrease. And once I heard a gong sound that reverberated in my ears for over a minute.

So those are some of my ME moments and other oddities. If you are interested in MEs, do a Youtube search for Mandela Effect and you will find tonnes of videos on the subject. Not all are true MEs, but who knows, you may find yourself agreeing with some of them.

I would be interested to know if any of my readers remember those above things as I do, or if you remember them as they are now. Leave me a comment and let me know!


Family and Politics

I think I’ve said it before, but will repeat it: my family is filled with right-wing, ultra-conservative, rednecks. I think I am the only progressive, bleeding-heart liberal in the whole lot of ’em. And it has become even more evident during this political election cycle. I am currently “at war” with these family members on Facebook. Yes, I post left-leaning articles and posts on my Facebook timeline. Yes, I am extremely anti-Trump. I am not pushing my agenda on anyone (i.e. I don’t go to their posts and scream and berate them for their right-wing, Trump-loving posts), but they delight in coming to my posts and spilling their hate-filled rhetoric – and I do mean FULL OF HATE. I’ve asked them to please stop, but they cannot grasp that I have the right to my opinion on MY Facebook without being harassed by them. They are family. I don’t want to have to delete them, but I am getting  close to that very action.

One of my cousins tonight called me a “nut case” because I don’t fall in line with her way of thinking. Well yes, dear cousin, I am a certified “nut case” but not because my heart is hardened and all I can spew is hate. But I would rather be a “nut case” than to just blindly believe that Trump and Trump alone will solve all of this country’s woes (and apparently in his first hour as President!) while filling people’s heads with hate, destruction, and doom.

There’s no talking to them. No amount of “please stop” seems to sink in. They think they deserve their opinions, but apparently I am not entitled to my own. If it isn’t an ultra-right opinion, then it isn’t warranted. It’s like free speech only runs in one vein with my family. But then, that is the atmosphere of this entire election cycle.

I get it. I really do. None of the candidates this year are worthy of the Presidency. Donald Trump is a misogynistic, narcissistic bigot who used to be a Democrat and still has a lot of liberal-leaning ideals (he’s just good at turning himself into whoever he needs to be at any given time – a good Con man). Hillary Clinton is a lying career politician. Gary Johnson is a pot-smoking idiot (not to be confused with my intelligent pot-smoking friends) who has no clue where Aleppo is nor can he name one foreign leader that he admires. And Jill Stein, well… I don’t know enough about her, but what I’ve seen and read rubs me the wrong way. And although I supported Bernie Sanders, even he is flawed and far too angry a man for my taste. There is not one single honorable candidate in the bunch. No one to get enthusiastic about and respect. (Oh how I wish there was a Bobby Kennedy in the bunch!) And, because of all of this, this election is ripping families apart.

And so the battle will continue with my family, probably long after November the 8th. I will never see eye to eye with the majority of them. They will probably continue to view me as a “nut case” for it. But I will say this, if it gets any worse, I will start deleting and blocking them on Facebook. It’s not as though they’ve made any effort my entire life to actually get to know me, and with their hate-filled rhetoric, I don’t want to know them.


Thoughts on Doing My Own Thing…

Once again, I turn to Rob Brezny’s Horoscope for some words of wisdom. Here is mine for the week beginning on the 18th:

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): Coloring books for adults are best-sellers.
Tightly-wound folks relieve their stress by using crayons and markers to
brighten up black-and-white drawings of butterflies, flowers, mandalas,
and pretty fishes. I highly recommend that you avoid this type of
recreation in the next three weeks, as it would send the wrong message
to your subconscious mind. You should expend as little energy as possible
working within frameworks that others have made. You need to focus on
designing and constructing your own frameworks.

I find this amusing for a couple of reasons: I never cared much for coloring books as a child because I always wanted to color outside the lines and create my own doodles to color AND a friend bought me one of these adult coloring books for Christmas and I’ve only colored one page. My friend loves her adult coloring books and has completed a couple of them. I get the concept. Great for relieving stress. Keeps you sharp and focused on one task, so also great for people with ADD or ADHD. It’s not so good for creative types with OCD because just one color outside the line and well, we go bonkers! I am more comfortable without the lines or my own lines, thank you very much!

I am encouraged by Rob’s words. To design and construct my own frameworks. I’d like to think that this is what I have been doing a lot lately with my writing. I think that the more I step outside my comfort zone and write things that frighten and scare the shit out of me, the more honed my skills are becoming. I also like that I am doing my own thing with my writing these days. For so long, I concentrated solely on one genre, believing that this was all I was cable of and not much else. Or that I needed to write mainstream fiction if I ever wanted to be published. But now I know that isn’t so. Now I don’t care about publication or mainstream. I just care about the writing. I love the characters I’ve come up with lately. And I enjoy exploring the dark side of my subconscious.

So thank you, Rob and thank you for the reminder to keep doing my own thing!

Thoughts on Blogging – Likes vs. Comments

I follow a lot of blogs, like many bloggers do, both here on WordPress and on Blogger. On WordPress, I receive some updates via email and other blogs I read via the WordPress Reader. I have a tonnage of emails. At present, well over 700 to read, all of them from blogs.

I like to be engaged with the blogs I follow. Generally, I try to tweet, comment, like and reblog often. I do it to share others work. It is time-consuming, and yet I enjoy it.

I feel guilty if I just “like” a blog post and run. I do it sometimes though. I do try to comment on at least one or two blog posts from those I follow a week and leave comments when I am inspired to write something. I don’t just want to leave a random blah-blah, meaningless comment.

All of this does mean that I am generally days and days behind on people’s blogs. So if you see a stranger stopping by long after you’ve forgotten about a post you’ve written… well, that would be me.

What are your thoughts about “likes” versus “comments”, do you do one or the other or both? Let me know below!