My Daily Tarot – Judgement

12/31/16 – Judgement

The message of Judgement is clear. You are being called to do something. You might not want to hear it and are actively drowning it out with noise of your daily life. You might be afraid of the call and the changes it will bring. Listen to it and face it with courage and action. It promises a more fulfilling life.

Be aware of two things: First, of ignoring the call or shrinking from it in fear or obstinance; second, of mistaking the desires of others or of society for a true calling. Do not feel compelled to dance to anyone else’s tune, and do not ignore the music of your own heart.

Yes, dear Tarot. I do have a calling. I know what it is and I know that I do allow life, in general, to get in the way of fulfilling that calling. But how do you convince people of your mission when they look at you like you are crazy? They believe that my story is so outlandish that it can’t possibly be true. They say, oh it’s your mental illnesses that make you believe these things. You must be schizophrenic, but I am not. I know why I am here, how I got here, and what I must do. It’s just hard to do my calling when everyone around me believes I am insane.

The Daily Me (Journal) Judgement II – 12/30/16

Today’s prompt comes from 100 Inspirational Journal Prompts by Melissa Bolton @ The Mogul Mom

What characteristics do you judge the most harshly in yourself?

Oh goodness, where to start? I probably have more bad characteristics than good ones.

One that I judge myself harshly over is my ‘supposed’ selfish nature. I don’t mean to be a ‘me first’ person, but I know I come across as such. You see, it is not intentional. I get hyper-focused on whatever I am doing to the exclusion of everything around me (remember dear Tarot cautioned me about that just a day or so ago) and when I get that focused, I tend to forget about family and friends and other commitments I may have made. This makes me look like a selfish jerk and I get called that (and worse) quite often.

Another one that I judge harshly about myself is my forgetfulness. I really do have memory issues and if I forget to write myself notes, I will forget to do things. This usually ends up disappointing someone and they get upset with me and I, in turn, get upset with myself. Vicious, nasty cycle.

I can also come across as haughty and snobbish, even though I don’t mean to act that way. I just live in my head a lot and cherish the intellect. All else seems rather tedious and boring to me. But when people point out those characteristics to me, I berate myself and tell myself to act like the average people more often. It is exhausting.

And finally, I judge myself most critically for procrastinating. It sucks the marrow from my bones and causes me a lot of stress because I suffer from OCD and putting things off is just not productive for me. And yet, I do it to the point of driving myself mad.

The Daily Me (Journal) Judgement – 12/29/16

Today’s prompt comes from 100 Inspirational Journal Prompts by Melissa Bolton @ The Mogul Mom

What characteristics do you judge the most harshly in others?

I’d love to be able to say that I don’t judge others, but it would be a bold-faced lie. It’s not that I go out to deliberately judge others, but there are just some things that I find vulgar and repulsive and they do force me to judge others over it.

Since I am mostly a serious person, I detest people who act childish all the time. A bit of childishness once in a while is fine, but never taking responsibility and being constantly childish, rubs me the wrong way.

I don’t like people who are crass. It’s not that they can’t be sensitive to others, it’s that they don’t want to be. They are deliberately distasteful, tactless and witless, like wearing a badge of honor to see how cruel and demeaning they can be.

I cannot abide by people who are disrespectful, inconsiderate, and intolerant. These characteristics usually go hand-in-hand and are usually shown toward people of color, the LGBTQ  and women by bigots, misogynists and racists.

Small-thinking, narrow-mindedness and exclusivity are other traits that I find repulsive. I just want to shake people who show these characteristics and expand their minds. Not everyone has to live in their little selfish bubbles.