The Sandbox Writing Challenge #6 — What is holding you back?

Still working my way through Calen’s challenge based on Roberta Allen’s The Playful Way to Knowing Yourself

What is holding you back?

The only thing that has ever held me back from accomplishing my goals is FEAR. Sometimes I’ve been able to overcome that fear and accomplish things, like my college degrees and some of my writing projects. However, there’s still a lot I haven’t done out of fear – travel alone to Maine, self-publish, start a new relationship, look for more local friends. I do fear getting close to others. Will they discover I am a fraud? Yep, that question lingers a lot, even if I am unsure what I am supposed to be a fraud about. I am such a complex person. Fear can be such an evil task-master.

The Daily Me (Journal) Things to Hear – 12/20/16

Today’s prompt comes from 100 Inspirational Journal Prompts by Melissa Bolton @ The Mogul Mom

Some things that you’d like to hear right now.

“There’s nothing wrong with you. You are fine just the way you are.”

Ravens cawing

Laughter

A witty joke

A Linkin Park song, preferably Somewhere I Belong

My blood circulating through my veins

My joints cracking

My muses’ voices

My Daily Tarot – Five of Wands

12/20/16 – Five of Wands

You are in a competitive situation. See it for what it is: an opportunity to grow and help others to grow. Although competing with others, you are really in competition with yourself. Do your best, for your own good and for the good of others.

Be aware of inappropriate motivations. Compete with an eye to improving yourself and society, not to hurt or destroy someone else. Play by the rules. Have confidence in yourself and do not seek an unfair advantage by cheating.

Sly, tarot. Now you are reading my emails? I just signed up for two competitions to begin on January 1st. A weight loss motivation/competition and a writing competition. Neither one is about who wins or who loses. So I don’t feel weird competing in them. Both are merely to help me keep accountable about my goals toward weight loss and improving my writing skills. I understand the caution not to hurt or destroy someone. As a recovered Bulimic, I know all too well how addictive weight loss can be, especially when you have others encouraging you to lose weight. I also know how easy it would be to fall back into that binge/purge scenario as a cheat. I definitely need to keep myself in check and follow the rules.