Share Your World – 2016 Week 51 – Favorite Holiday Edition

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For Cee’s Share Your World

What is your favorite holiday? Samhain

What types of food is associated with your holiday? Candy, apples, bread, cakes, Black Spider Stew (my recipe, a take on Irish Stew – no, there are no spiders in it)

Do you travel for your holiday? just around the neighborhood, dropping apples around trees for the dead

Is it a religious or spiritual holiday? spiritual for the most part

Is there a gift exchange? not really, at least not now since I am not around others who celebrate Samhain

How long does the celebration last? Two days and two nights, Oct 31-Nov 1

Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week? My great-niece’s leg had only a minor break, she has a lovely neon pink cast and is in great spirits.

and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? Prepping for Christmas dinner with my brother. 

The Sandbox Writing Challenge #5 — What Makes You Different?

Still working my way through Calen’s challenge based on Roberta Allen’s The Playful Way to Knowing Yourself

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What it is about you that you feel makes you different from everybody else? 

It would be easier to list the things I have in common with everyone else, but even that wouldn’t be an accurate list. Yes, I have a human body, but I have an alien soul. See what I mean?

I guess the things that make me different are:

I care more about Humanity and Earth than I do about myself. It is, after all, my mission here. (Note: if you’ve never heard about Blue Flames, Indigos or Crystal Children, now would be a good time to look them up.) I try to involve myself in as many humanitarian and environmental issues as possible, in the small ways I am able.

I am an empath. I feel others’ pain and often get ill when I am around someone who is hurting deeply. I also feel the Earth’s pain and get ill any time there is a major Earth catastrophe, like earthquakes, volcanic activity, hurricanes, etc. I do have to be within a 1000 mile range of the activity though to feel the complete impact of it. When Katrina hit New Orleans, I was living in OK and I was sick in bed for over a week. It took me years to understand this connection with earth catastrophes and my illnesses. Lots of research and plotting out the patterns. I’ve felt a bit ill the past couple of days since that 7.9 earthquake in Papua New Guinea on the 17th, followed by a 6.3 later that day and then a 6.4 in Brazil yesterday. When I say ill, generally I get a wonky, unbalanced feeling in my head, my stomach aches and I usually end up in bed from it. There’s just no way I can function correctly.

Like most people, I have normal, sometimes bizarre dreams. However, the majority of my dreams are about a crystal city  on a small planet in the Andromeda Galaxy. That is home.

Those are the more unusual ways that I am different from most people. I am also a computer nerd, a science fiction geek, an introvert, and a solemn, quiet person. Those things are not beyond the norm though. There are millions of us out there like that. I think it would surprise people to know that there are thousands upon thousands of Blue Flames, Indigos and Crystal Children out there and probably just as many empaths. I am not sure about Walk-ins though. There are probably more of us out there than people would guess too. But a Blue Flame empathic walk-in? I am not sure there are that many of us. For all I know, I may be the only one.

 

 

 

 

The Daily Me (Journal) Lovable – 12/19/16

Today’s prompt comes from 100 Inspirational Journal Prompts by Melissa Bolton @ The Mogul Mom

Do you feel lovable?

Truthfully? For the most part, no, I don’t. I never felt love from my parents or my siblings. In relationships, I always felt used, not loved, which is probably why none of them lasted long. And for the longest time, I didn’t even love myself. The only times I’ve ever been shown true love was from animals. And even with them, I always doubted if it was true love or they just wanted fed. How sick is that? But that is the reality of my life. Always doubting if someone is showing me affection without strings attached.

Now I just love me and hope that it is enough. Sure, there are things about me that I still don’t like and I am still working on, but I also know that I love me for me with all of my flaws and quirky ways. It was a long road to get to this place. Lots of counseling and spiritual guidance. I had to learn to shut off those negative voices in my head and just listen to the voices of the Archangels Charmeine and Raphael. Charmeine is the Archangel of Harmony through self-love and Raphael is the Archangel of healing. They’ve both been a tremendous help to me. And when I am surrounded by their energy? Oh yes, I do feel loved

My Daily Tarot – Five of Pentacles

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12/19/16 – Five of Pentacles

You are in need. Help is nearby. Do not be dissuaded even if the building, organization, or person seems imposing. Ask for the help you need.

Be aware of making your need larger than it is. Learn what resources are available to help you help yourself.

Interesting. Something I haven’t thought about for a while. I was told a few months back that there are probably other programs out there that could help me with my disability, but at the time, I wasn’t sure I wanted to go that route. I believe in only seeking help when I direly need it, otherwise, leaving it out there for those who need it desperately. I may have to rethink this, especially any government assistance as that could go away completely under a Trump presidency. I heard recently that Trump and the Republican congress wants to cut Social Security payments in half for anyone under a certain age. It was in the high 60s, can’t recall now. But if they do, that will affect me. I just barely live off of the amount I receive now. I don’t think I could manage at all with only a little over $300. *sighs* And I get so sick of them calling SS an entitlement program, at least by their definition of entitlement. I paid into it. Does that mean I am entitled to it? Hell yes! But not the way they see it.

*climbs off her soap box*

FYI – I wasn’t around yesterday because we had a family emergency. Wouldn’t ya know it. The one time I hadn’t schedule any of my posts ahead was the one time I needed to. Miss you all!