05.06.16 – End of Day Notes

What I did today: More than I thought I would get done. Did several writing projects, but still have a few I want to work on tonight before bed. I am actually feeling a bit better today. Spirits are lifted, but I don’t know how long that will last.

I am still working my way back to the low carb diet. I guess I will just have to go cold turkey again. Just tapering off isn’t working because if I have just one tiny bit of carbs, I want more and more. Like I am starving and cannot get full. It really sucks.

Had another one of those strange synchronicities tonight. I was watching Mission Impossible: Rogue Nations (Tom Cruise is my dirty little secret… shhhhh!) and they went to Casablanca in the movie, then I went through the house and dad was watching a Steven Seagal movie and they mentioned Casablanca in it. That kinds stuff always happens to me.

Anyway, so the day is nearly finished, but I am not. Will be doing a bit more writing as soon as I post this.

What I learned today:  I fear I am having one of those cycling Bipolar episodes. I hope not. I really don’t want to go back on medication. 

What I am most proud of today? I made it through another day. Seriously, if I can just make it one day at a time without wigging out, I am proud.

What did you do today, dear readers? Learn any lessons? Have a reason to be proud? Share your thoughts with me in the comments!

10 Daily Currents – 05.06.16

It is Friday at 5:43 pm and I am currently…

1. listening: to the news in the background

2. eating: nothing.. just not hungry

3. drinking: iced coffee

4. wearing: blue sweats, long black sweater, blue thick wool socks

5. feeling: a bit tired, but not so gloomy today

6. weather: cold, cloudy, about 54 degrees

7. wanting: sunshine

8. needing: to be reading some things

9. thinking: I wish the weather would warm up and stay warm for a while. So tired of this cold shit

10. enjoying: too cold to be enjoying much *sighs*

I had a thought, dear readers… if you’d like to grab these 10 Daily Currents and write your own, link back to my post so I can share along with you!

Celebrate the Small Things – 05.06.16

Celebrate blog hop

Today I am celebrating that Celebrate the Small Things falls on a Friday and not yesterday. I was in a deep, dark funk yesterday and wouldn’t have felt like celebrating anything but my bed. Today, the mood has lifted some and I am feeling much better.

I am also celebrating more writing projects. This month, I am writing a story a day throughout the month of May and am almost a week into it. It feels strange to just write general fiction after writing science fiction for a month. I’ve also decided to begin writing a memoir, so that should be different and hopefully exciting at the same time.

I’d like to be celebrating in the garden, but it has been uber chilly the last few days, raining and just generally blah. The weather should improve beginning tomorrow, so hopefully we can get some plants in the ground soon.

There’s not much else to celebrate right now. I would like to wish all of the Mothers out there a Happy Mother’s Day. I am not a mother and my own has passed on, so celebrate for me. Will ya? *smiles*

What are you celebrating this week, dear readers? Feel free to share with me in comments.

Each Friday, I join Lexa Cain and friends for a weekly blog-hop called Celebrate the Small Things, where we celebrate all of those small moments from the week before.

The wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog

Celebrate The Small Things Linky:

1. Lexa Cain 2. Fiction and Film
3. Writing Off the Edge 4. Kidbits
5. TheCyborgMom 6. Thoughts and Ideas from Deanie Humphrys-Dunne
7. My Inner Geek 8. Eclectic Alli
9. Intentional Insights with S. Kelley Harrell 10. Constantine
11. My Miracle Life 12. Writing, Reading, and the Pursuit of Dreams
13. My Creatively Random Life 14. Shells Tales and Sails
15. Lara Lacombe 16. TF Walsh
17. Caring for my Veteran 18. Life, Yoga and Other Adventures
19. About myself, by myself 20. Suzanne Furness
21. Elizabeth Seckman 22. Avalon
23. Cherdo on the Flipside 24. My Baffling Brain
25. Planet Kimberly 26. Shah Wharton
27. Mere Joyce 28. Victorian Scribbles
29. Tanya Miranda 30. God, Entertainment, & Annoying Things
31. Ann – A Friend of Jesus 2013 32. Special Teaching At Pempi’s Palace
33. Square Pegs 34. Patricia’s Place
35. Yvonne Van Dalen 36. Anne Higa
37. My Antimatter Life 38. Into the Imagination Vortex
39. Bouquet of Books 40. Lightravellerkate
41. Curious As A Cathy 42. Thoughts for the Day
43. Julie Flanders 44. As the Fates Would Have It
45. Project Why


New Project

It has taken me years to dig up the courage to embark on this new project. I cannot even begin to tell you how many times people have said to me, “You should write a memoir about your life.” I still cannot imagine why. I feel like my life has been relatively boring compared to many. Still, I suppose I have a few things about my life that may interest others.

So, beginning this upcoming Monday, May 9th, I will begin writing and posting pieces of my memoir here on this blog. The working title for it will be A Delicious Torment. Topics of interest will include my mental health issues, mainly that of having Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar Disorder and OCD, along with a few other issues such as my descent into madness and suicide attempts. I will also describe my life as a bisexual woman, my college days, and my marriage of 13 years. I am not sure how deep I will go into my childhood, but there will be some of that in there as well.

Hopefully, I will be able to write this without it sounding like one huge pity party. No one wants to read something like that. I haven’t yet decided if I will write it chronologically or in piecemeal. I guess it depends on how I feel each Monday. I intend to be completely honest in this project. Lies will be exposed and possibly some shocking truths will come to light.