What I did today: not nearly as much as I wanted. I stayed up all night again last night, did some writing and then crashed around 8:30 am. Was back up by 12:30 pm because my sister promised to stop by and bring my grand-nieces today. She never showed up. I took an unexpected late nap due to a back ache and now it is nearly 11 pm and I guess I am up for a while again. Maybe I will get some productive writing done.
What I learned today: I thought I was over my resentment toward my siblings, but I guess I am not. My sister’s carelessness today just brought it all back to the surface. She makes promises and then doesn’t keep them and she can’t even be bothered to call. My dad sat around all day waiting for her to show up for his birthday (she never stops by on THAT day, always a day or two late) and I could see the disappointment in his eyes. And yet, he will forgive her. He always does. If it had been me, I would never hear the end of it. Not from him, or my siblings. Both of them can get away with anything, but I never can. I am so tired of being the responsible black sheep.
What I am most proud of today: Nothing. I lost my cool and blew my peaceful mindset because of it. I’ve been trying to figure out how to get back there, but deep breathing didn’t help nor did meditation. I guess I will have to do a ho’oponopono session and clear it with love. *sighs*
What did you do today, dear readers? Learn any lessons? Have a reason to be proud? Share your thoughts with me in the comments!