03.25.16 – End of Day Notes

What I did today: not nearly as much as I wanted. I stayed up all night again last night, did some writing and then crashed around 8:30 am. Was back up by 12:30 pm because my sister promised to stop by and bring my grand-nieces today. She never showed up. I took an unexpected late nap due to a back ache and now it is nearly 11 pm and I guess I am up for a while again. Maybe I will get some productive writing done.

What I learned today: I thought I was over my resentment toward my siblings, but I guess I am not. My sister’s carelessness today just brought it all back to the surface. She makes promises and then doesn’t keep them and she can’t even be bothered to call. My dad sat around all day waiting for her to show up for his birthday (she never stops by on THAT day, always a day or two late) and I could see the disappointment in his eyes. And yet, he will forgive her. He always does. If it had been me, I would never hear the end of it. Not from him, or my siblings. Both of them can get away with anything, but I never can. I am so tired of being the responsible black sheep.

What I am most proud of today:  Nothing. I lost my cool and blew my peaceful mindset because of it. I’ve been trying to figure out how to get back there, but deep breathing didn’t help nor did meditation. I guess I will have to do a ho’oponopono session and clear it with love. *sighs*

What did you do today, dear readers? Learn any lessons? Have a reason to be proud? Share your thoughts with me in the comments!

10 Daily Currents – 03.25.16

It is Friday at 6:03 pm and I am currently…

1. listening: lawnmower outside, my fan inside, and the angered beast within

2. eating: I had a bunless burger and some brussel sprouts for dinner

3. drinking: Pepsi Max

4. wearing: blue silk pj bottoms, black silk night gown, black socks

5. feeling: pissed off

6. weather: cool, breezy, about 60 degrees with the sun shinning

7. wanting: to release this anger

8. needing: to meditate and get back in a peaceful mindset

9. thinking: I still harbor too much resentment towards my siblings

10. enjoying: well, I did enjoy The Avengers a few ago, but I am over that now

Celebrate the Small Things – 03.25.16

Last week, I didn’t get to celebrate anything. I was all set to write my post when the neighbor’s tree hit our Lumos line, knocking out the cable, phone and internet. I will celebrate that no one was harmed and I was back up and running by Monday.

We celebrated the arrival of Spring in a typical Virginian way with wacky weather. It was a record cold 1st day of Spring. I stayed huddled in my room with the heater on, writing.

Wednesday, we celebrated my dad’s 73rd birthday. We didn’t do anything special because that’s just the way my dad is… no thrills, no frills and no fluff. So long as well all remember a card or a “Happy Birthday, Pops!” then he is a happy man. I guess it comes from growing up poor and always making a meager paycheck with 3 kids to raise. He was never one for presents or even a cake. We did make him a nice dinner though.

By this time next week, March will be over. It has been another whirlwind month of writing for me. I can hardly believe the month is so close to an end. And with it’s end, will come the end of my noir-style WhoDunIt, The Stacked Deck. I have enjoyed being in the head of my MC, Jack Diamond. He is such a cad, but I love him! I will miss him when this month is over. But I do have April to look forward to and with it comes the A2Z Challenge. I will be switching gears from mystery to science fiction. I figure if I can go from horror to mystery, then these science fiction stories should be a breeze.

And finally, I am celebrating the visit of my sister and my two grand-nieces. They should be here in just under an hour. It’s been nearly a month since I’ve seen them. Skylar and Autumn are a sheer joy to be around.

What are you celebrating this week, dear readers? Feel free to share with me in comments.

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Each Friday, I join Lexa Cain and friends for a weekly blog-hop called Celebrate the Small Things, where we celebrate all of those small moments from the week before.

The wonderful co-hosts of Celebrate the Small Things are:
L.G. Keltner @ Writing Off The Edge
Tonja Drecker @ Kidbits Blog

Celebrate The Small Things Linky:

1.	Lexa Cain	2.	Fiction and Film
3.	Writing Off the Edge	4.	Kidbits
5.	TheCyborgMom	6.	Thoughts and Ideas from Deanie Humphrys-Dunne
7.	My Inner Geek	8.	Eclectic Alli
9.	Intentional Insights with S. Kelley Harrell	10.	Constantine
11.	My Miracle Life	12.	Writing, Reading, and the Pursuit of Dreams
13.	My Creatively Random Life	14.	Shells Tales and Sails
15.	Lara Lacombe	16.	TF Walsh
17.	Caring for my Veteran	18.	Life, Yoga and Other Adventures
19.	About myself, by myself	20.	Suzanne Furness
21.	Elizabeth Seckman	22.	Avalon
23.	Cherdo on the Flipside	24.	My Baffling Brain
25.	Planet Kimberly	26.	Shah Wharton
27.	Mere Joyce	28.	Victorian Scribbles
29.	Tanya Miranda	30.	God, Entertainment, & Annoying Things
31.	Ann – A Friend of Jesus 2013	32.	Special Teaching At Pempi’s Palace
33.	Square Pegs	34.	Patricia’s Place
35.	Yvonne Van Dalen	36.	Anne Higa
37.	My Antimatter Life	38.	Into the Imagination Vortex
39.	Bouquet of Books	40.	Lightravellerkate
41.	Curious As A Cathy	42.	Thoughts for the Day
43.	Julie Flanders	44.	As the Fates Would Have It
45.	Project Why

 

 

Creative Questions 4 – Who Am I?

I’ve decided to take calmkate @ Aroused up on her Creative Questions Challenge by answering each of her 6 current questions over the next few days.

CQ4: How do you describe yourself when asked Who are You?

This is a question that I have struggled with for a very long time. I know I am not my birth name (Loretta, for those who are curious), I am not my profession (writer), not my nationality (American), or my ancestry (English, Irish, German, Cherokee), I am not even the *me* that inhabits this body. It’s difficult to answer such a question when you are a walk-in, but am I even I’Ceen (my Andromedan name)? Perhaps I am merely a spirit inhabiting a body, but is that the totality of who I am?

I could tell you of my personality – introvert, quiet, peaceful, at times anxious, at times manic/depressed, at times extremely OCD, riddled with phobias, eclectic, an enigma, so open-minded I fear the Universe lives within my mind, intuitive, empathic, highly sensitive to everything around me – but are any of these things really me?

I could tell you my labels – daughter, sister, aunt, ex-wife, lover, friend, bisexual, Buddhist, witch, spiritualist, poet, artist, fiction writer, Reiki Practitioner  – are any of these really me?

I guess I would just say that I am ME – take the time to get to know ME and perhaps you will discover the answer without asking me.

How about you, dear readers? How would you describe who you are if someone asked? Share your thoughts with me in comments.