This week’s challenge is What are you holding onto from the past?
Maybe it would be easier for me to list the things that I have resolved from my past. It took years of therapy, learning Mindfulness and Ho’oponopono for me to let go and forgive, not only others, but myself as well.
- I have forgiven and spit in the face (mentally) of my Creative Writing teacher for telling me that I would never be a writer
- I have forgiven my childhood sexual molesters for their deeds against my person and my mind
- I have forgiven my 1st ex-husband for his abuse
- Forgiven myself for the loss of both of my children to miscarriages
- I have forgiven my family for their abandonment and disinterest, this especially includes my mother
- Forgiven myself for distancing myself from my family
- Forgiven my estranged husband for our failed marriage and realized and forgiven myself for my role in it as well
- Forgiven myself for my mental illness that ruined my one chance of true happiness
- Forgiven myself for losing that one person who would have given me that true happiness and have forgiven her for leaving
- Forgiven an old friend for her ways and rebuilt that friendship
- and I’ve forgiven myself for all of my trampy relationships throughout my life
I’ve even recently let go of two relationships that I know I will never recover and am working on forgiving them and myself for our roles in letting the relationships suffer.
So I am not sure that I am still holding on to anything from my past that I need to let go. Like I said, I’ve had intense therapy, nearly ten years of it. I learned to say what made me angry and then I learned to let it go. I wrote letters to my tormentors, read them aloud to myself in a mirror and then burned the letters. This was a year long process. Then I learned to stay focused on the here and now through Mindfulness. This past September or October, I began practicing Ho’oponopono and cleared out the remaining issues. Now when I get upset or angry, I don’t let the issues fester, I just clear them immediately. It probably helps that I have a faulty memory and if there is anything left out there to clear, I may not remember what it is anymore.
How about you? Are you holding on to a past event that is eating away at you? Ready to let go? Let me know in the comments.
That’s some list! Takes a lot of courage, inner resolve, motivation to do all that – and then some 🙂
Thank you… yeah, but it is a result of a LOT of intense therapy and determination to get well… especially since I was so unwell for about 8 years. Thanks for reading and the support 🙂
Awesome you 🙂
Thanks hun 🙂
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I hope I posted this weeks’s challenge in the correct comment field. I clicked What are you holding onto from the past? at the top of the page. Then it lead me to a new screen. That is were I posted my answer.
It looks like you posted in the right place Richard 🙂 Calen’s site 🙂 I will pop over there and have a read 🙂
Very thoughtful post, Lori. It’s hard work sorting our lives out and then reordering them, isn’t it…
Thank you, Calen.. it is indeed.. an ongoing process too 🙂 thank you for another thoughtful question 🙂
I am with you on sooooooo many levels Lori. Reading your list is almost like reading my own. ❤️
Oh wow… well I hope you have resolved them, SD ❤
I have. The Sandbox Challenge has been very therapeutic for me.
Yes, it is having that effect on me too 🙂 Bless Calen for doing this for all of us!
There is No doubt that Calen has played a very pivotal role in the progress I’ve made over the last 8 months or so. ❤️